Three Drunk Monkeys

Abby’s First Hiking Trip April 29, 2012

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Ian and I had the first hiking trip with the girl today.  It went pretty well.  Originally we were going up to Denny Creek, but the snow hasn’t quite melted yet.  I think it wouldn’t be so bad except when they plowed the road, they managed to block it too, so the trailhead was inaccessible.  Nice job there guys.  😦  So we (along with Carrie and Kris) decided to go to Twin Falls instead.  We used the Ergo, and I must say, I did well.  Twin Falls isn’t that long of a hike… maybe three miles round trip.  I think I almost got to the half-way mark (and I took the uphill part too) when I finally passed her off to Ian.  I could’ve made it all the way, but it would’ve gotten to the point that it wasn’t fun anymore.

 

She loved it.  She looked around with this look of wonderment at everything… the big trees she stared at like the ceiling fan with her mouth agape.  After a good amount of time taking it all in, she started talking to me.  I imagine that she was telling me about how cool all of this was.  After a few cooing sounds, I’d say “Oh, yeah?” and look at her… she’d return my stare with a huge smile and we’d have this moment.  After I traded her off to Ian, we hiked a little more and in about 10 minutes, she fell asleep in the carrier.  Poor little exhausted girl.

 

Poor exhausted parents.  She’s about 16 1/2 pounds now, so it was no small challenge to carry her around… even in the carrier.  This is the first time we’ve hiked this year (and the first time for me since before she was born).  It was no small feat that we were able to do this… me without my knee brace too (ugh).  There will be many more of these to come, but I feel like it was a successful first trip.  Not too hard, not to easy – I think there’s about 500 feet of elevation gain – not too shabby.

 

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“Be the real you and don’t worry about those who judge you because most of the time they don’t really matter.” – Unknown April 24, 2012

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I’m in a particularly crunchy mood today.  Since I started pumping and no longer actually breastfeeding Abby, I’ve been a little melancholy.  It’s been a while, but I just haven’t figured out how to mourn the loss.  I guess it comes down to the oxytocin I’m not producing as much of now (if at all?).  I’ve started seeking out other people’s stories and being a cheerleading for those that have done what can’t or didn’t.  I know what I want to do differently, but I’m not sure how to go about it.  I think with the next kid, I might stay at home longer.  I would’ve liked to breastfeed for much longer.  Pumping just isn’t as much fun or fulfilling.

 

I’m jealous of the women who have super boobies, and can feed their kids after returning to work.  But I’ve dug my own grave.  The first night home, we gave her two ounces of formula so she would just stop crying.  She slept for 4 hours and we were relieved.  Looking back, I did so much research on the birth that I wanted, that I totally skipped over how I actually wanted to take care of her.  I knew I would breastfeed, and in my head, it would be for years.  I knew that I wanted to do attachment parenting to some extent (not militant at all), and co-sleep.  Next time, I will be stronger when going out with a new baby.  She’s over 6 months old, and I still shy away from taking her places by myself, for fear of what people will think if she starts crying.  I know that partially, this is all in my head.  But I care too much what people think.  I need to get over that.  I don’t think she’s once really cried in public.  In the car on the way home, yes… but she almost seems to know that it’s not appropriate to have a melt down in public (for now).

 

I need to get over being the perfect parent that I want to be, and just be the parent that I am.

 

 

“A fit, healthy body—that is the best fashion statement” ― Jess C Scott April 4, 2012

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I thought I was going to be one of the lucky ones.  The new mothers who look like they were never pregnant… and I was, for about a month or so.  Then I gained back the weight – plus some.

I had just started the Couch to 5K in November or December.  I’d repeated the first week 3 times, but couldn’t bring myself to actually run for long periods of time.  Then I found out I was pregnant and I stopped going (I’m a morning gym person, not the best thing for a pregnant lady).  I stopped drinking (as you should) and at the first prenatal appointment, found out that I’d lost 4 pounds.  Well, woohoo for me.  The doc said that happens sometimes because of the morning sickness, which I didn’t have any of.  We figured it was because I’d stopped drinking beer.  At the next appointment a month later, I’d lost 4 more.  I got scolded by the doctor and said I wasn’t allow to lose anymore… which I did.  Four more.  She put me on a high fat diet (yogurt, whole milk), and generally told me don’t lose anymore.  I gained one by the next appointment, and then it was a healthy weight gain from then on.  From my original weight (before I lost anything), I probably gained 15 pounds or so.  If you include the weight I lost in the beginning, I was well within the normal limits.  My plan when I went into labor was to weigh myself before and after.  Well, everything went so fast, I didn’t think to, so I don’t know what my final weight was.

I had Abby, and the next day I was in my pre-pregnancy clothes… AND THEY WERE TOO BIG.  This was great.  I was down to a weight that I liked and I didn’t have to do squat.  I was breast feeding and eating like a lumberjack… and then I started having issues with her refusal and that led to supply issues.  But I was still eating like a lumberjack.  Now I’m up to 145.  😦  My goal is 20 pounds to lose.

I want to be in a happy place before Abby really starts to realize my attitude about my own body.  I never had any body image problems growing up.  I don’t know where this is all coming from.  I have fat days now.  I know that I’ve had a kid and there are things (like larger tummies) that come with it, but because I had that faint glimmer of a work-free fit body, I’m disappointed in what I am now.  So I’ve done something drastic, and signed up for the Tough Mudder (http://toughmudder.com/).  If I don’t train before I do this, I’m certainly going to get injured (hell, I might get injured WHILE training for it).  But I want to be healthy for her, and rein this in before I want to lose 50 pounds, not just 20.

Kids are so receptive to feelings at a young age, and some adults just don’t realize that.  I don’t want her to see that I’m unhappy in my own skin.  That’s actually one of the reasons that I’ve decided to do baby-led solids… I want her to have a good, healthy relationship with food.

“There is nothing more rare, nor more beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. To me, that is the true essence of beauty.”
― Steve Maraboli